Am I being emotional?

I am not sure but I really know that I have been long waiting.
Wait....waiting...and waited. Will I be tired.....?

That is the question flying thru my head.
Waited for the holiday, waited at the airport, waited for him to return from work and I am now waiting again. Again for the right moment, when is that another 3 yrs?

Times flying off by and I am here waiting.

I couldn't understand what actually I am waiting for? The Mr Right to return?
Is he the Mr Right that I have been waiting for? I was never doubted not sure if I am starting to have the doubt now.

Ppl says he changed, he is nice and he loves me.
But sometimes I do wonder...what if we were never back?
Will it happen like my dream, I have him back but instead he is other's boyfriend and having the fear of being slapped by the rightful owner.

Was I been truly loved or just that I have been here for so long and he just gets use to it?
Tiring of starting something over again and the journey again.
For me? I would rather love him with the true heart then just getting used to it.

My fear was there and is still there...
That I will loose him one day and he walked out of my life with the sentence "I only think of her when I see her". The line that once shattered my heart and change my life.

I have been addicted.....
But I know the boundary is there...and I will walk out if I have to.....