Finally I get the whole picture...the thing that drag the both of us.

I am not sure if what you have now is a crush or really a love. I know very well what I have for you is love. I have been loving you for the decade and I will still love you whole heartedly. I would be sad and not satisfied in away to throw away a relationship that went thru so many layer of life. But I guess when it all happen, it just happen. No matter how long you love a person, it will just change.

I wanted to cry but I think I have done that. Deep down I wanted you badly to stay with me and really grow old together. But I would one that person to love me whole heartedly. If I am not going to have that, I would rather let go and be hurt now. I don't mind to drag, suffer or sacrifice anything if I could only be love in return. I am not sure what I ask for is something huge or small.

If we get thru this, it will be a big success...if not then we will have the most wonderful decade together as the sweet memories I shall carry to the bed of roses. Even though I went thru this day hurt, sad, dissapointed but if I get to wind back the clock...I will still choose this road on. At least I know what is true love and what is it like to go through the thick and thin.

I love you and hope you will be there for me...as a friend or a lover.
I will be there for you till the day I die no matter as a friend or a lover, you have my words to count on.

Thanks for being true to me and I really appreciate and cherish it. It takes a huge courage to pour all this out. Thanks for everything...miss you.